( p.s. Taken from a postcard )
SEIZE THE DAY !
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND AT ITS OWN TIME..
My daughter was listening to an old song of the 90s and looking outside. When the song ended, there was silence but she continued looking out of the window. Then, she turned to me and said, ' Mom, it is so mind soothing listening to an old song. It takes you back into time. But, when the song stops, the melody lingers on ..and you will find yourself still wandering the past...alone and feeling lonely..'
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They
threw many hurtful words at me. They even described me as a useless broken soul
who worth nothing more than a penny. I did not blame them though. How could I
when nobody was to be blamed except for myself. Now, everything had changed.
Memories of the life that was once mine began to slowly unfold before my eyes
as I walked through the lonely road.
At
the age of 13, I was still the only child of the family. Imagine how wonderful
my life was when I was always pampered by my parents and did not have to share
anything with anyone. However, it was just a short lived happiness. One day, my
parents came back with news that left me crying for one whole day; my mom was
three months pregnant! Everyone seemed to be looking forward to having this
baby. Whenever relatives came for visits, the talk of the day would always be
about the baby. Suddenly, I felt lonely. I chose to shy away when people come
to my house. To add to my sadness, my parents did not seem to notice the change
in me.
Finally,
the day that I dreaded the most arrived. Sara was safely delivered into the
world on the April 2, 2000 at noon. She
had small fingers, plump rosy cheeks, round dark eyes and very curly hair. She
was simply adorable! Almost at an instant, I forgot about my true feelings for
her. I told myself that maybe having her around would not be so bad after all.
As days passed, I would try my best to be a good sister to her and a good
daughter to my parents.
Therefore,
whenever I could, I would help my mother with the household chores and took
care of Sara. However, as days passed, all attention would always be on Sara.
Whenever the family got together for lunch, dinner or just spending time
together, Sara would always be the centre of attention. No matter how hard I
tried, I would always be neglected or the one at fault when we had a fight. It
went on and on until I could not take it anymore. I started to count on the
days when I could get back at Sara and made her pay for all the misery I had to
go through.
Finally,
the day arrived. It was the day when Sara turned four. My mom wanted to bake a
special cake for her. That was when I got an idea to play a trick on Sara.
Dressed in my favourite brown dress, I
sneaked into the kitchen and hid under a table fully covered with a dark red
table cloth. Hiding and waiting under the table was a torture but my plan must
go on. When there was no one in the kitchen, I came out and sprayed the cake
with insecticide. Then, I happily ran to Ina’s house and played with her until
we fell asleep.
When
I woke up, it was already dark. Uncle Sham, Ina’s father sent me home. When we
reached the front door of my house, we heard no sound. No one answered when I
pressed the doorbell. The lights were not switched on even though the cars were
still in the garage. Curiosity got the better of me and I walked to the
backyard. The door was left open! We tiptoed into the house as we did not know
what to expect.
My
heart stopped beating upon seeing a man lying motionless on the floor. Oh no! It
was Dad and lying beside him was a beautiful woman whom I called Mom. I
rushed to them and called out for Sara. In tears I saw her lying face down near
the door. There was white foam coming out of their mouths. Oh God! They were all
poisoned! I went to the table where the cake was placed and saw a present with
a small card on it. It was mom’s handwriting.
“My
sweetheart, we just want you to know that there is nothing in this world that
could ever replace you and Sara in our hearts. Happy birthday, my love.”
With love,
mom and dad.
My
birthday was on the following week. My mom celebrated my birthday together with
Sara’s. Perhaps that was why she baked a special cake. Seeing their lifeless
bodies made me lose all my senses. Tears started pouring down my cheeks and my
knees went weak. I collapsed to the ground. No more strength to even raise a
hand. "It’s all my fault…, I killed them all.." was all that I could say. I
laughed and laughed continuously. I ran
out of the house not knowing where to go.
Since
then, I ‘remained’ in the same brown dress
, walking, talking, laughing, thinking about what I had done.
By : NADHRAH BINTI SULAIMAN